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I think I'm about 20 minutes from passing out (fucking meds...), so let's make this quick. I've just finished a 2,369 word post pretty much explaining some of the reasons why I a) am taking a brief hiatus from Tumblr and b) still REALLY hate white feminism (aka mainstream feminism). Yes, those reasons are very much related. (Though now that I think of it, I don't think I actually mentioned the hiatus in the post...)The amount of racism (and backlash from the Laci Green bullshit) I've seen in the past week alone was enough for me to leave for a while and come here. The fact that people are STILL defending her stupid white ass is pissing me off to no end, so yes, I'm here for the time being. It's nearing election time, and while I have little to no interest in this election, I should be blogging about it anyway.

I expect my rant to probably piss off people. I kind of don't give a shit. As I said on a Tumblr post, if this shit pisses you off, it's meant for you. Learn from it.

It should be up by 10 maybe.

Oh, and I moved my Tumblr. For this kind of stuff I mean. My old one is strictly personal now. Links will be changing eventually, once my life is less shitty and my grandparents aren't dying anymore. (Oh, yeah, there's that too.)

Meh. & Birth Certificates #Obama

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So I'm scrolling Tumblr, & in the midst of all of the Glee, there's a politics post... Apparently President Obama released his long form birth certificate to shut up the Birthers.

[sigh] You don't have to prove anything to them. Besides, I doubt even this will shut them up. On the other hand, I kind of enjoy this "IN YOUR FACE!!!" attitude all of a sudden... Do I dare read the comments? Oh boy... Let's...

Oh dear god what the fuck is wrong with these people?! "When you run for office, sign me up. I want to be the staffer who goes nuts and shoots you."  WTF?!?!?! SERIOUSLY!!!

But otherwise I'm quite impressed by the maturity of a few of these commenters, for once... "He's already president. If you're upset about it, do something next election." And so on. Whoops, spoke too soon. Look, a FOX parrot! Oh look, another one!

Alright, I think that's enough politics for one day... I'm going to go make a new Kindle case and rewatch Glee (while recording my reactions... I tend to rant out loud anyway and talk to myself, so doing this actually works a million times better than just trying to write it down.)

Oh look Tumblr is about to crash for me... Seriously, wtf... [sigh] I don't feel like doing anything.

Happy Birthday, Me...

So here we are, yet again. My 22th birthday has finally arrived, and with it a multitude of major life changes... College graduate, employed (thankfully), with quite a few new scars, & without a few familiar faces, no longer just an open-minded ally but possibly a member of the shortened acronym, &... Well, I have no idea what happens next. Come January, everything will change again... But I think I might like it. Maybe... Some things.

Also, last night was the final big night of primaries...


I sense a tumultuous year ahead.

This Rant brought to you by Storyteller Knight

Look, people, the new Mosque going up in New York will not be built on top of Ground Zero, okay? It will be built two blocks away. Mosques already exist within a two block radius of Ground Zero. THIS IS NOT A BIG DEAL!!! But, if you are hell bent on turning New York City into the Born-Again-Christian-Holy-Land, why don't start with the STRIP CLUBS that exist within the two block radius of Ground Zero. Or does the Born-Again-God need his pole dance on the sabbath?

--Storyteller Knight

Random fun things - quizzes and such.

Ok,so maybe I have 3 posts waiting as drafts right now, but this is much more interesting at the moment. Apparently one group has already started their 2012 presidential candidate quiz (you know, where you pick your views and see who you match with?) I just completed 2 for the 2008 election, got Obama (big surprise there, lol... I did too much research for that 1 vote, so I'm well aware of why I chose him.) Turns out for 2012, he's also my highest match (95%. That's higher than the first time I ever took the 2008 test... something of a 55%. Which apparently is about where I stand with McCain circa 08. Granted a lot's changed in the world since then and the questions address slightly different things... Though I'm really sad Nader isn't on it, nor is Kucinich or Weiner or Grayson... Everyone on the quiz list has expressed some interest in running in 2012, & Nader has already said he's not ruling it out... Where are you, Nader?!)

Here are my results - (the top candidate is a hypothetical person who agrees 100% with you - you might as well put your own name down, because such a person is not likely to exist). 95% Obama, 85% Biden (?? Well, I guess he is 2nd in line after all and should have a plan just in case... But let's hope things don't come to that... Not that I don't think he'd be interesting, I just don't want anything bad to happen to our current president -- or any other for that matter. Wishing ill upon someone is disgusting... As much as I dislike Mrs. Palin, both politically and in terms of personality, I would never ever wish anything bad happen to her. Do I think she deserves some things? Probably. She does it to herself sometimes. It's Karma. Speaking of which, my crazy mother must have done something right for someone- she received an anonymous religious thank you card with $50 in it... Doubt it's anyone from her church, as she hasn't been there in months, and last I checked, charities didn't send your money back to you... And since my family is notorious for giving away more money than we should to friends, family, charities, etc, to the point where my parents filed for bankruptcy at one point, I'd like to think the universe makes sense again.) I think it's hilarious that way down at the very bottom is none other than Rush Limbaugh at 8%. (I apparently overlap with Palin more than Limbo, with a 13%... I want to know what! I think it's probably charter schools... I don't disagree with supporting charter schools, and I'm not a fan of vouchers for private schools. That may be the 1 thing we agree on... Ah yes, I believe it is.)

Where do you stand? Who's your candidate?

2012 Presidential Candidate Selector

P.S. - Hope you'll be attending Hands Across the Sand in a few hours!!! :-)

(posting from my phone isn't working anymore...?!) Finally home from work... It was a weird day all around, but there were a few awkward highlights -- we were a little surprised to see a t-shirt that said "WHITE KINGDOM!" on the tag (does anyone remember in what movie they kept screaming that? I'm pretty sure it's "Let's Go to Prison," but don't remember exactly when... Funny movie... good times...) followed by a rather rude customer comment of "fire all foreigners"... (There's a lot of xenophobia where I work... & a lot of old, conservative, incredibly rude people..) I'm starting to really wonder about this place, lol...

In other news, just waiting for some crazy religious cult to start ranting about the floods in AR & OK being a "warning from God..." O hey, here it is... And I quote:

18 dead
22 missing
40 = Judgment.
40 DAYS OF RAIN = NOAH'S KILLING FLOOD 

[rolls eyes] Soo... fun day of weirdness...



Hoping everything is going as well as can be hoped... & that everyone else is found alive and well. Let's keep in mind the 20 who died-- including the 6 children :'-(  --and their families...

Change...

Hm... I keep hearing this song at work. I can't stand it, but every time I hear it I start thinking about change. Everything feels weird again. Like I want things to go back to normal, back to the way they were before I ever left school... My old friends, my old apartment (the first one. Miss the window in the kitchen...) and roomie... But that's not "normal" anymore, is it... I'm not in school anymore, I'm not going back in August... I have a job, a car... Life goes on. Yet ingrained in the very fiber of my humanity, is the uncontrollable urge to resist that which we cannot change-- change itself. Even as a small child, I've tried to fight back, keep things the same... I miss what I lose. Maybe more so than miss... obsess. Panic. I think perhaps that's why I'm so determined now to be open to change... Trying to be flexible and just accept that things can't and won't stay the same, just because I want them to, is really hard...

If there's anything I've learned about major change over the years, it's that it happens when you're not looking. If it surprises you that things are different, you just weren't paying that much attention. It happens - there's a lot going on in the world. But if you can pay close attention, there's so much you'll notice... Things happen really gradually, and there are always signs... You just have to be aware of them. Everything happens for a reason. Cause and effect. Not to say you'll always be able to predict exactly how things will go, or to stop the change from happening... But it gives you the opportunity to brace yourself, adjust, adapt, and regroup so that it doesn't completely broadside you. And sometimes it gives you the opportunity to speed it along...

Life is short. I want to enjoy it while it lasts. I've spent too many years feeling miserable... So here's to change.

Congrats!!! & Voting...?

Congrats to Storyteller Knight for winning the La Campanella Le Series Meillure Award for her superhero series Cat's Eye Private Investigators!!! Way to go!

So I went to vote in the primary election today - don't ask me why, it seemed like a fun idea at the time (and it was. I got to go for a walk, & it's a gorgeous day... The people there were really cool & funny, & clearly they hadn't seen many people from outside of that room today... I just hope that guy I saw in the car across the street from where the kid was playing by the school wasn't a kidnapper or a pedophile... He was creepy.) (Liked one candidate way more than the others, so figured I'd help out...) Update - Used so many words to say something so simple. To vote in today's primary, I had to declare an affiliation, so obviously I chose the lesser of 2 evils (especially considering the "tea party approved" Republican candidate who I cannot stand) and went with the Democrats-- well ok, the candidate I wanted to vote for was a Democrat up against people I don't particularly like. So I decided to help the guy out. The rules have changed a little bit, and this is my first ever primary election... "you do whatcha gotta do." So until I fill out the paperwork, I'm considered a Democrat by the state... Still an independent of course (going with the argument that registering to vote with them isn't the same as joining, as joining usually includes donations and such as well), but as there are more independents in NJ than Democrats (the next biggest group), a lot of people have to go through this process... What a waste of paper! We should be able to change it online or something, lol... Or do most people just not bother changing it, or voting in primaries? (I think it's the latter. I was "maybe number 17" for my ward & district... Granted I went when most people were at work, but it wasn't that early either...)  Either way, the paperwork to go back to being an "official" independent is on  my desktop ready to be printed whenever... I hope the person I voted for appreciates this! lol

Anyway, this is a mini-post, so back to the real world...

random musings from work

Seems there are only 2 possible reactions for every kids TV show watched again as an adult- it's really deep & sophisticated & enlightening, or you wonder how you managed to watch such crap & still turn out relatively normal. (power rangers is on @ work. the original series. it's mindboggling how bad it is...)

Mini-post from work, via Ping.fm

Lunchtime updates-

I'm starting to wonder if perhaps all that's been going on us some sort of strange conspiracy, a twisted version of fate or karma...if only because it's so mind-boggling to think it's just a convenient coincidence, or that we're just noticing these things now, as if for the first time. When trying to pass healthcare reform, several insurance companies suddenly hiked up their rates by up to (and in some cases, over) 50%. We saw recently that companies were dropping women diagnosed with breast cancer. The ban on drilling was lifted, and we talked about the need for alternative energy. Soon after, a mine exploded and killed 26 people. We're in the middle of one of the worst oil spills in history that is damaging protected land and wildlife (after the initial explosion, in which at least 11 people were lost...)

At least the spill seems to be making our president and others rethink drilling and protecting whales and wildlife, even if it's only a temporary freeze. It's sad that it takes disaster to make people think, but at least we can all recognize the need for urgent change and reform!

tired but mini-rant

typing this from my ipod, so please forgive the lack of caps. have work in a few hours, but i'm kind of freaked out, like i'm about to have a panic attack... today is going to hurt like hell, but it's what i need, so... if this is what it takes...

anyway, news on the healthcare front - it might not work out financially, despite the cbo's earlier analysis. disheartening, to say the least. i don't know what's going to happen, but it can't be good. this law was our start to a brighter future. we need to finish it. but the country has been dragged so far right that the voices of progressives are always being drowned out... what disgusts me even more is that i can't help but notice how much the social landscape has changed since the bush era, or even clinton. it's weird that i'm not old enough to remember past that. facebook especially is creeping me out. i guess it just made it easier to realize how many complete jerks you know, from those who advocate rape and torture, to those who "like" pages about murder and death threats, to those who advocate hatred and violence. i was thinking yesterday about how i used to be naive like that... the whole us vs them mentality was all there was to the world; that because i don't like something, or i think it will have a negative effect on me, it can't possibly be good for anyone else or have any redeeming qualities... to think that i used to watch fox, before i realized consequently how little i really knew about the world, how much there still is to know. back when i was a naive little anarchist rebel without a cause... i never really knew what that meant. what was i fighting for? i can't even remember. it was then that i declared i was a communist, trapped in the fascist police state that is the catholic school system (which it totally is, lol). i wanted to show the world what real freedom was... but have i ever really known real freedom?  and to think that i know people who still think so childishly like that, & believe the entire world should revolve around their own idea of morality, that because it conflicts with their worldview it can't be allowed to exist, even if that will hurt or continue to hurt others. so naive, stubborn, egocentric, childish... ignorant. though when did i become so old? when did i give up punk rock? i know that i've grown up so much since those days... god i was so naive back then... in so many ways. and people think i'm shy and quiet now... though if there was anything i would want to tell my 15yr old self, it's to never let ANYONE get in your way of happiness. those who will stand by you, those who will never betray you, those are the people to keep by your side. do not trust anyone but yourself- your heart and your mind are your greatest weapons. (also, never send a suicide note by email if you can't actually go through with it 5 minutes after you hit send. it doesn't work out well, and ends up being the one thing you can never forgive someone else for sharing and permanently destroying your trust and in a lot of ways your friendship, even though you'll try very hard over the next few years to forgive and forget. you will eventually, for a short time, but you shouldn't.)

the fact that politics has become such a huge part of our social discourse is both a blessing and a curse. you can see who your friends really are on the inside. apparently some of mine are rude, insensitive, racist jerks. so thank you, facebook. i think when i get home today i will likely end up finishing at least one of the posts i've been working on. you know, being nice to people you don't like. to some extent, no more. i'm tired of rude and inconsiderate people in my life. i'm tired of fighting. i'm tired of tea party morons (the guy on the daily show was a nice change of pace) and repub vs democrats and independents lumped in with conservatives. i am not a conservative, and while i believe everyone is certainly entitled to their own beliefs, i personally find a lot of conservative viewpoints to be quite sickening. mostly because they're often so unbelievably hypocritical or just downright cruel. whatever. (deja vu all of a sudden... have i done this before? did i forget something?) i'm tired of keeping people in my life when i find them to be more annoying and draining than anything else. one thing i've been trying to figure out is telling someone i can no longer stand to just fuck off, without causing a major fiasco. everything with this person feels like a fiasco. there are too many people who drive me crazy, even without the craziness of politics in the picture. and if that means i have to be a bitch to get my life back, so be it.

well, now i feel slightly better, & i'm exhausted... random rants always help i suppose. will i regret this in the morning? likely not. i've given up caring for lent. good night.

Ugh...

This may very well be the most depressing day of my life [not really]. I've tried everything to get my Facebook updates linked here (without using FB connect, which would just show far too much private information) but the [insert expletive plural noun] over at FB decided to hide status subscriptions and it's been so much of a hassle already... It's impossible without a "middle-person." My only option is the despicable "Twitter." It seems that I've finally found a use for it after all... But I can't type in 140 characters or less!!! Even my away messages are getting long again. So I haven't a clue how this will work out, and I certainly will not be wasting time following or whatever. The only reason I even tried to do any of this is because I'm turning FB into politics and causes, since most of the friends I actually talk to regularly are no longer active users (or I talk to them by other means) and the fan pages have taken over anyway-- and as a result, most of my status updates and links have nothing to do with my life in particular, but are just articles and things I find and comment on. And since the only rolling comment/link app I could really find is... well, you know, I've come to the conclusion that I'll try it out for the sake of trying something new to get what I need... Regrettable, and shameful (lol) but here goes...

New features!

Hey everyone! I'm giving the site a new upgrade, since I've found so much cool stuff on Amazon.com to share with you! Still waiting for my new gadgets to load (so far, not so good, Amazon... I'm a little disappointed!), but expect to see tons of new features on this coming soon. (Though I'm kind of disgusted by the current search results that are coming up... All super-conservative liberal bashing... What's up with that, Amazon???) I needed a new project anyway ^^".  So first of all, some of my friends may note that I've been talking about several sites and books on Facebook, especially "How to Win a Fight with a Conservative"  by Daniel Kurtzman. I haven't been able to find this book in stores, however it's available on Amazon.com for less than $10.

Mini-Post 2:Regarding Feedback

Ew, I used "parents" & "sex" in the same paragraph... Lovely little visual for you all! Excuse me while I gouge my eyes out...

Hey everyone! I'm glad to see/hear that so many are enjoying this so far! ^^" I really didn't expect that at all...

@Marve1gir1 - (Actually, I've also received feedback via phone, AIM, & Facebook...) & lol, none of the above.
(Though now I'm wondering where the hell some of those topics came from...I am so confused, lol... & wdum girls... What about "non-hetero" [Ultima-san, yea I totally couldn't wait to use that, lol...] guys! YAY YAOI!!! Yuri is no fun at all!)

I just want to remind everyone that this IS a public site, anything you say is visible to anyone and everyone, so be careful about what you want people to know. I don't censor. I will NEVER use names or publicly identifiable information, this is meant to be semi-anonymous fun (which is why the facebook links- from there to here- are public for 3 days only. After that, all links will be moved to a private page - "Kappa Delta Sigma" for those of you in it, or private myspace blog.)

As for the next "topic" - most likely will be posted Friday or Saturday night (days off... next week will be killer...) Ja, mata!