Monday, May 14, 2012

#antisocial mentally unstable introvert problems

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This is one of those days where I really don't want to talk to anyone. I'm more than frustrated, I'm pissed off and I want everyone to just go away. I'm tired of people who don't get it. I'm tired of having to explain. I'm tired of this stupid fucking world where everything sucks and never changes.

Today is one of those days when I just need to be alone, left to do my own thing, without people trying to talk to me every two seconds. (I would have told off my boss just for being an annoying twit today if I didn't need to keep this job a bit longer.) I'm like a cat - I will go to you when I want to be around people, but otherwise I need to do things at my own pace or I will self-destruct. Finding people who can understand that  is... impossible, at best, and I end up hurting people. There is no reason why anyone should like me or want to be my friend. I am selfish, and I am self-centered, and right now, I really don't have it in me to care.

It's like with CB last week. If I'm upset and it shows, if I'm frustrated or angry and I need to vent, stay away and leave me to it unless I ask for help or a distraction. Not just for my sake but your own.

we bottle up emotions until we explode
send a thousand glass shards spiraling into the night

Sunday, May 13, 2012

I can't even with these people anymore.

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[TRIGGER WARNING - Rape, trivialization of rape, rape jokes]

Putting this under a cut. If you are easily angered and want a happy Mother's Day, ignore this. I am so disgusted right now.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

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Sorry I haven't been around much. There's a whole bunch of crap going on with my family, and, as usual, it's complicated and messy and unbelievably stressful. It's been a very bad week... or two. Wow ok. Yeah. That. 2 weeks since SBL. And I'm getting frustrated again because all of my forms of escape are disappearing and/or becoming one more reason to want to run away...

And suddenly, I don't even want to talk about why I'm here. I don't want to talk media, I don't want to talk politics, I just want... I don't know. I want stability, both in my head and outside of it.