Acceptance...

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I've been trying all day to figure out how to put this into words... this feeling, I mean. When someone literally hands you everything you've ever wanted and more, in just a few simple words. For me, it's always been acceptance - "I'll support you in anything you choose to do or be." Once, a long time ago (well, 2 years...), my father said that to me. 

And now this person tells me I'm perfect just as I am, "faults and baggage and beautiful face and all." In just a page, it's like I've fallen in love with them all over again. I think I could marry this person. For real, I mean. I really think I could. (Well, if it was legal in either of our states...) And I realized, as I brought the box inside the house, that I came home to something so wonderful... and maybe, just maybe, I could have that every day someday...

I hope she knows how much I meant what I said, too. 

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Happy Birthday to Meeeeeee

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So yeah, it's my birthday, and I will be making my yearly post as usual. Later. Right now it's time for fanfiction and sugary alcoholic beverages. I've had this blog for over 3 years... Wow.

Updates, Life, etc.

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I don't feel like actually being productive today, so I thought I'd write. If for some reason you've been following my personal life, you'll know things haven't been so great lately. What a surprise. But if you've known me, you'd know it was inevitable. It happens. Maybe someday it'll be fixed and better, but right now, I'm just... exhausted.

I finally started researching more grad schools. (That's the one good thing about feeling like this - I stop caring about whether or not something hurts and focus on the mechanical, where perfunctory is perfection.) I have information and application info for my top 3 schools. Which, surprisingly, haven't changed at all since back then, even if my program has altered slightly (and goes by a different name at each school). It gets clearer every year... 

But part of this search... Well, maybe you'll understand what I mean. One of my biggest frustrations with my life is that I know precisely what I want, but I have no idea how to get it. With a grad school search, it's easy. They tell me exactly what I need to do in order to get it. They give me definite, defined goals and a plan.

My top 2 choices are the MSW from Temple and a MPA (with a focus in community-clinical services) from University of New Haven (though I'm wary about living in Connecticut). I have my heart set on Philly still, but I'm trying to keep other options open... 

Keyword this week is options. There are always other options. Sometimes they're just hard to see.